Hai blogger maniac how are you ??? long time not seee . hmmm i dont know whats the matter today . i just feel wanna cry loud and scream out . and say all off dirty words . begin FUCK SHIT DAMN ASS or anymore . maybe with that i feel ok . i know it such crazy thing .but i dont know the other solution to solve that fucking things . i only  wish it's gonna be over and i can breath a fresh air . amin o;)

Haaiii blog how are you ??? hahah long time not see wkwkwkwk . ok tonight i just wanna share lyrics in here . i don't think to make a diary now because i'm totally blank after hear the sad news . actually not the sad news for him but for mee yes haha . but this lyrics is still relate with what i feel now . when you love someone - endah n rhesa . enjoy the lyrics blogger mania hahah :D

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say… “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way….
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true

this song is heading to a person whom i loved . i hope he also have feeling with me .  haha what a stupid hope -___-"

wishes and facts

i wish i have an old brother , but the fact only little brother
i wish i'm a rich person so i can buy all of things that i want , but the fact i'm not a rich person
i wish my grandma still here with me, but the fact my grandma has been pass away since 11 years ago
i wish i'm a crown princess but the fact i'm just an ordinary person
i wish i can enter UNHAS through JPPB way , but the fact i'm FAIL
i wish i can go abroad free cost , but the fact i go to there with my own money  
i wish i can be a nice girl , but the fact i always make a trouble
i wish i can make my parents happy , but the fact i still make them sad
and last i wish he loves me just the way i am , but the fact he has a girl 

his name is ?????

      His name is tetot . hahah you don't have to know who is him .  but the one thing you have to know from him , he is the most cute people that i have ever see . i met him 5 months ago on my course place . the first time i saw him , his face like a detective conan . hahha :D but some of my friends told me that he is not like conan . and they mock me if i'm blind because of my looking . but i don't care about it . and day by day , week by week , and  month by month i feel something that different to him . yes fall in love . and i dont know maybe because of my mouth , he knows my feeling . oooh how shame am i .
      about the feeling to me , huh i don't want to know because i have know the answer "NO" so is better if he don't tell the feeling . why i said no , because i saw on his fb account that his relationship status is complicated with a girl . is that will break up or will be a couple ??? i dont know . only him and god know it . 
      huh actually i won't write this because i know it will be the risk . but i don't know where i want share my story . maybe i should share in here . i hope he dosn't know . amiin . actually some of my friends told me to forget him because i'm with him very different include in age . yeaah our age is different very far . but i won't do it . maybe i'm egoism . but this is the truth that i can't forget him . and about his relationship , eventhough he has a girl that's ok . loving him is not mean to have him . and i think his girl so lucky have a boy like him . hmm what a happy couple . and for the boy do not care about my feeling . just keep continue your carrier . and i hope you reach your dream to continue your study on java . and also i wanna say sorry , because of me you become shame in front of your friends and my friends . again sorry sorry sorry . and i hope you are happy with your girl , and for the girl do not hurt him .  okaaay . hmm i think that's all . i hope he doesn't know about this story . amiin .

when i'm in there part 3

     this story is tell you when i'm on lake mountain . yaah a place on aussie where you can play with snow . i think  can play snow just on my dream . but that's not true . god hear my wish and finally i'm not only go abroad but also play snow . thanks god . maybe some of you will think if this place is has lake . because of it's name . but that's not true . in there you just saw snow with a high tree . the reason why the name like that ??? i also don't know about it . haha
      i went to that place with shelley , mrs.maree , and also some of myanmar people . they are mrs. maree church friends . they also have skin like me . and also eat rice . i went from the house on 07.00 o'clock and i went to there on 10.00 o'clock . 3 hours to go from shelly's house .then when on there the first time i said WOW because i still cant believe that i saw a real snow . hmm maybe some of you will said that i'm villager . but do i care ??? hahah . i played with snow from 10 o'clock until 1 o'clock . i had dissapointed because i can't play ski . shelley told me that the price is expensive and then i have no skills to play that one . but that's ok . these are the photos when i'm in there

thank so much shell for make my dreams come true :*

may , a month where all of third grade of senior high student feel "CENAT CENUT"

why i said that because in this month the result of my and their national exam (UN) will be announce on 16 may 2011 . not only UN , also jppb on unhas (or you may said like free test to enter unhas) and snmptn invitation will annonce next two days after un announcement .  huh i feel nervous . i'm afraid because i this year no one remedial for the student who not pass on UN . and also i heard from my friends if 4000 student on makassar are not pass . i hope is not true . amin . and i hope i'm with my friends pass with a good mark . not only un i also hope i enter on red campus economy faculty like my mom wish . amin :) .

when i'm in there part 2

naah ini lanjutan yang episode I . namun kali ini bukan d rumah shelley lagi melainkan di skolahnya . pertama kali datang ke tempat ini mata saya langsung terbelalak . atau kalau orang mks bilang mungkin mata bolla hahah . bgmn tdak sekolah ini kalau di makassar mungkin sudah seperti bangunan UNIVERSITAS . luas memiliki banyak ruangan . penuh dengan tumbuhan hijau . pokoknya TOP BGT dah  . di skolah ini sendiri terdiri dari lebih dari 50 kelas . yaaah bayangkan saja .dan setiap siswa hanya diperbolehkan mengambil jurusan/ kelas maksimal 5 . and no UAN . woow hebat banget yaaah dak kayak di negera kita sdah 13 mata pelajaran hrus dpelajari . sdah itu pake UAN lagi . Gila bener dah . klo wc lagi lebih keren nih klo kayak di kampus atau di skolah mgkin tersedia 5 kamar mandi buat murid"nya . klo d BSSC lain lagi . bisa sampe belasan ato puluhan bo' . jadi orang gak pake ngantri" lagi klo mau buang air hehhe . terus di dalam kelas maksimal hanya tersedia maksimal 20 pelajar . nah kebetulan kelas yg sya ikuti yaitu biologi , bindo , bing dan sejarah sesuai dengan jurusan yg diambil shell . namun saya juga pernah skali ikuti klas lain tepatnya kelas kimia bersama laura . laura sendiri yaitu sahabatnya shelley . di kelas kimia sendiri saya belajar sambil praktik . nah ada lagi yg bda disini . di klas laura nih ternyata selain tempat belajar juga sebagai tempat praktek . jadi ada mej praktek dan baju lab . saya sempat ditawari utk ikut praktik namun saya menolak . secara saya juga tidak tau dan apa yg mereka bilang . maklum bing saya msi basic pemirsa heheh . takut ada kesalah pahaman di atr sya dan mereka . jadi it's better if i saw them practice . hihi . selain d klas laura saya juga sempat ke kelas lainnya ada mipa , mekanik , seni , broadcasting , fashion pokoknya sampai kaki bengkak" krn kecapean jelajahi ruangannya BSSC . nah kalau perpustakaan sendiri yahh hanya bda 11 12 same with kantin . tpi klo di kantinnya nih kita harus cpat"nih klo mau makan . takut barisan atnrinya paling belakang sih . klo di kantin BSSC sendiri mau pesan makan hrus ngantri . biar pelajar maupun staffnya . jdi dak ada dibeda"kan . dan dak ada istilah teriak"an . dan makananya bukan mie siram mie kerin ato yg lain . but chips pasta , hmm how delicious it is . berikut bbrapa foto di BSSC

nah sekian dlu yaaah ttg bsscnya brikutnya kita ke tempat lain lagi . see ya :)